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bipolar366Cycle: mixed state
Mood: low, low, low, but slowly getting better
Created: a little more of the YA horror
I am still not in a great mental place. It has been a shit year so far, and we're only five days in. Last year was a shit year, too. As was 2014, and 2013, and 2012. Mostly because there have been so many deaths in the family, and I am really struggling to mourn and deal with stress and control the bipolar. (Attempt to control the bipolar, I guess.)
But today I made some things and did some things (I wrote, I cooked a good dinner, I spent a great deal of time cuddling with my dog and laughing at ridiculous things with Partner and checked in with a friend who is giving me so much support even while she's going through a terrible time herself).
I read a lot, and right now is no exception. I have (again) been frustrated by the way people throw around ableist slurs in otherwise really excellent books. People are "crazy," a situation is "bipolar," a man is dangerous because he is "a madman". I am infuriated.
I also really hate the trope that goes: Character is crazy! (Hears voices, sees things, whatever.) OMG NO, Character is NOT crazy, Character is magic! All is well!
You can be crazy and have skills, too. You can be crazy and still be a good person worth a good story. You can be crazy and still be a person.
I know I'll talk about this in more depth later.
Mood: low, low, low, but slowly getting better
Created: a little more of the YA horror
I am still not in a great mental place. It has been a shit year so far, and we're only five days in. Last year was a shit year, too. As was 2014, and 2013, and 2012. Mostly because there have been so many deaths in the family, and I am really struggling to mourn and deal with stress and control the bipolar. (Attempt to control the bipolar, I guess.)
But today I made some things and did some things (I wrote, I cooked a good dinner, I spent a great deal of time cuddling with my dog and laughing at ridiculous things with Partner and checked in with a friend who is giving me so much support even while she's going through a terrible time herself).
I read a lot, and right now is no exception. I have (again) been frustrated by the way people throw around ableist slurs in otherwise really excellent books. People are "crazy," a situation is "bipolar," a man is dangerous because he is "a madman". I am infuriated.
I also really hate the trope that goes: Character is crazy! (Hears voices, sees things, whatever.) OMG NO, Character is NOT crazy, Character is magic! All is well!
You can be crazy and have skills, too. You can be crazy and still be a good person worth a good story. You can be crazy and still be a person.
I know I'll talk about this in more depth later.
