bipolar366

Cycle: mixed state
Mood: low
Created: YA horror story

Terrible dreams last night. I had a hard time falling asleep in the first place (I've had insomnia for years, but it gets worse and worse as I get older and especially now that I'm off my meds), and when I did, I dreamt terrible things. The two parts I remember involved my dog eating Partner's mom's tiny little puppy (which is more than likely to happen; my dog is even more antisocial with other dogs than I am with humans), and then I dreamt that my dog hopped into a full bathtub of water (highly unlikely, at least not willingly) and then died, by becoming a frozen statue that I couldn't bring back to life no matter how much I tried.

I woke from that terrified and disturbed and nauseous, and have spent a huge part of today cuddling my dog to try to shake that feeling. To no avail, unfortunately.

This left me in a bad mood all day, and feeling like absolutely crap. Or at least, it left me in a bad moon, and I also feel like crap, my sinuses sore, my head stuffed up, and my throat rough, like something is caught in it. So that's fun.

I hope tomorrow will be better.