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Day 25 and Day 26
Jan. 26th, 2016 09:44 pmDay 25
Cycle: mixed state
Mood: trying to crash, fighting it
Created: casual blogging
Have no idea why I didn't blog yesterday. I could have sworn I did, but no. It was a quiet day, my first day having significant time alone after being on for so many days in a row. Maybe that's why it passed in such a haze.
Day 26
Cycle: mixed state
Mood: trying to crash, fighting it
Created: pottery
In the pottery studio today. Took more than an hour to trim one piece. Then I decided to do some simple carving, just to see how it felt and how it would work with the glaze. Not ready to be glazed yet, but the carving felt great, and I plan to do much more of that going forward. Big discussion over someone in the community who has basically claimed a time period of history pottery and throws a fit if anyone else makes something similar, because they are "stealing her research." Pottery Teacher just avoids that time period when making her own projects, because the fight isn't worth it to her. I am having to hold myself back, because the fight does feel worth it for me, but I'm not really in a place where me fighting the fight won't cause fallout for Pottery Teacher, which would be a shame.
Still. I have solid arguments, and love to fight. It would be so, so good.
This is why I joined career, and why I used to take boxing lessons. I love to fight, physically and verbally. I had to learn to pick my fights in career, because fighting wasn't always the right answer, or best for the client. It was always my first response, though. Still is. I am ready to fight, immediately, always. I've just learned to pull back some.
I have a tattoo of Canis Major, one of Orion's famed hounds. I got it before I joined career, as a reminder that there was so much more to the world than just this life (we are all stardust, etc.), but also because a good hound must learn to heel when necessary.
Cycle: mixed state
Mood: trying to crash, fighting it
Created: casual blogging
Have no idea why I didn't blog yesterday. I could have sworn I did, but no. It was a quiet day, my first day having significant time alone after being on for so many days in a row. Maybe that's why it passed in such a haze.
Day 26
Cycle: mixed state
Mood: trying to crash, fighting it
Created: pottery
In the pottery studio today. Took more than an hour to trim one piece. Then I decided to do some simple carving, just to see how it felt and how it would work with the glaze. Not ready to be glazed yet, but the carving felt great, and I plan to do much more of that going forward. Big discussion over someone in the community who has basically claimed a time period of history pottery and throws a fit if anyone else makes something similar, because they are "stealing her research." Pottery Teacher just avoids that time period when making her own projects, because the fight isn't worth it to her. I am having to hold myself back, because the fight does feel worth it for me, but I'm not really in a place where me fighting the fight won't cause fallout for Pottery Teacher, which would be a shame.
Still. I have solid arguments, and love to fight. It would be so, so good.
This is why I joined career, and why I used to take boxing lessons. I love to fight, physically and verbally. I had to learn to pick my fights in career, because fighting wasn't always the right answer, or best for the client. It was always my first response, though. Still is. I am ready to fight, immediately, always. I've just learned to pull back some.
I have a tattoo of Canis Major, one of Orion's famed hounds. I got it before I joined career, as a reminder that there was so much more to the world than just this life (we are all stardust, etc.), but also because a good hound must learn to heel when necessary.
