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Cycle: depression
Mood: depressed
Created: paranormal romance
Bad potential career news today. After something like 90 days, which is actually one of the shorter periods I've had to wait, but is still way too long, and also, always ends in bad news, so why do I keep trying? I give up.
I'll be traveling the next few days. Not sure if I'll be around. Have to say, this is not a great mental health place to be in while traveling. I will have to be very careful not to burn bridges with the friends I am visiting. I am depressed and frustrated and angry and feeling like a failure. I don't want to lash out, but it could happen. I will have to keep tight control of my emotions.
... because that's a thing that works so well lately. Fuck.
Could always jump in front of the train, I guess. Then I would be done.
Mood: depressed
Created: paranormal romance
Bad potential career news today. After something like 90 days, which is actually one of the shorter periods I've had to wait, but is still way too long, and also, always ends in bad news, so why do I keep trying? I give up.
I'll be traveling the next few days. Not sure if I'll be around. Have to say, this is not a great mental health place to be in while traveling. I will have to be very careful not to burn bridges with the friends I am visiting. I am depressed and frustrated and angry and feeling like a failure. I don't want to lash out, but it could happen. I will have to keep tight control of my emotions.
... because that's a thing that works so well lately. Fuck.
Could always jump in front of the train, I guess. Then I would be done.
