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bipolar366Cycle: depression
Mood: depressed
Created: paranormal romance
Things keep going wrong, and I don't have enough mental strength to deal with them without breaking. I did have a nice dinner with my sister and brother in law (and Partner), during which we watched the first two periods of the Blues game. I love hockey, and I love the way sister and brother in law love hockey. Particularly sister, who is the staff photographer for a local team.
Partner and I had a good day, and I spent a lot of time cuddling with the dog, and I got to laugh and relive private jokes with my family. Those are all good things. But not working is dragging me down, in part because it means no insurance and no insurance means no meds and other mental health treatment, and in part because, right or wrong, I take a great deal of my own self-worth from the fact I can provide for my family, but ever since my last big crash, I haven't been able to provide anything at all, even for myself, much less my family.
I am working on the last of the day's writing now, and watching the Relic, which is one of my favorite movies and books. Which is rare, for me to love both the book and the movie. The stories are very different, and both are incredibly satisfying. I remember watching the movie in theaters when it first came out, with one of my high school best-friends. It was quite an adventure, and we were suitably creeped out, which is also rare for me. (Though it was less rare back then, when I was young and not quite so jaded, I suppose.)
There's a scene in the movie where someone's head is cut off and you don't know it at first because of how they sit in the chair. We told her mom about it when she came to pick us up. We then stopped by my house so I could grab some stuff before spending the night at her place, and when we came out, her mom was sitting in the car at the exact same angle we described. It was a little scary and a lot wonderful. Her mom was pretty great. (Still is, I think, though I don't see either of them very often.)
Mood: depressed
Created: paranormal romance
Things keep going wrong, and I don't have enough mental strength to deal with them without breaking. I did have a nice dinner with my sister and brother in law (and Partner), during which we watched the first two periods of the Blues game. I love hockey, and I love the way sister and brother in law love hockey. Particularly sister, who is the staff photographer for a local team.
Partner and I had a good day, and I spent a lot of time cuddling with the dog, and I got to laugh and relive private jokes with my family. Those are all good things. But not working is dragging me down, in part because it means no insurance and no insurance means no meds and other mental health treatment, and in part because, right or wrong, I take a great deal of my own self-worth from the fact I can provide for my family, but ever since my last big crash, I haven't been able to provide anything at all, even for myself, much less my family.
I am working on the last of the day's writing now, and watching the Relic, which is one of my favorite movies and books. Which is rare, for me to love both the book and the movie. The stories are very different, and both are incredibly satisfying. I remember watching the movie in theaters when it first came out, with one of my high school best-friends. It was quite an adventure, and we were suitably creeped out, which is also rare for me. (Though it was less rare back then, when I was young and not quite so jaded, I suppose.)
There's a scene in the movie where someone's head is cut off and you don't know it at first because of how they sit in the chair. We told her mom about it when she came to pick us up. We then stopped by my house so I could grab some stuff before spending the night at her place, and when we came out, her mom was sitting in the car at the exact same angle we described. It was a little scary and a lot wonderful. Her mom was pretty great. (Still is, I think, though I don't see either of them very often.)
